I don’t really know where to start.. I just really want to
blog about this thing on my mind right now.
Calling all the girls out there, whether you’re in love, searching, in
pain, waiting for someone, or whatever situation you are in right now… this blog
is for you.
Well,
I’d just seen some old conversation from two persons who used to be so into
each other. Sweet thought ah? Probably yes but not totally.
I don’t
why do girls are so gullible. We tend to
believe in everything that a guy is saying to us. Promises here and there..
Unending promises indeed! Like;
1.
I will never leave you.
2.
You are my life now.
3.
I want you to be my last and to be my future
wife.
4.
I can’t imagine myself without you in my life.
5.
Trust me.. Just trust me.
Familiar uh? I bet! I don’t really
know where am I getting this thought, but I’m just really mad about it. Every
time I’m hearing my girl friends crying about these things, it makes my heart
break. Because once in my life… I’ve been hurt. I just really know how it
feels. And I thought I was the only one who heard these heartless promises..
but I’m not. I’d heard a number of girls venting about this matter. I saw the
pain in them. I saw how their future was shattered because of these promises. I
saw them and I feel for them.
Yeah, forgive me for ranting
again. I just really want to burst this thing. I don’t know. Well I will admit,
I’ve been hurt… so badly! My dreams were shattered that time. I’m really in
pain, months had passed by but still I’m feeling that pain. Same old pain
actually until I reached the time where I told myself that I will never love
again, that I will never ever trust any man again. There was no hatred in me
that time yet bitterness was in my heart during those times though.
But I guess it’s just really a
matter of choice, a choice to love and not to dwell in the darkness of our
past. Yes I’ve been hurt but it doesn’t mean that I will stop believing in love
-- that I will stop trusting people again.
Perhaps, we’ll get hurt once, twice or even more than that yet it’s not
the end of the world. If our relationship with that person doesn’t work, move
forward and just trust God that He has a better plan for you.
Right now, I found a man who is
really making me happy. He also promised those same old promises that a man
usually say. At first I was really afraid to trust him and I have a lot of
doubts. But then I realized that if I
will continue to doubt and will never learn to trust him… I am really unfair.
My former boyfriend’s mistake was never his. They’re two distinct persons and I
should realize that maybe yeah both of them are man but it doesn’t mean that
they will do the same thing. I do really believe now that love is really like a
gamble. You don’t really know what will happen. Whether you will take the
jackpot home or you’ll lose everything you have. May we never forget that
whether we won or lost something, there will always be a lesson behind it.
Life is really short, so just keep
on moving forward. Keep your head up and
most especially keep your faith in Him. He knows what’s best for you. Smile
beautiful J