1:30 PM
miidalab
It's been three years since I graduated when I finally had a chance to take the board exam. I enrolled myself sa mga review school before.. but I stopped reviewing after the first pre-board. I never finished the review.. why?
Kasi duwag ako e.. Mayabang din ako.. Duwag ako kasi I don't want to take the board knowing na baka bumagsak ako.. I know hindi ko kaya yung sakit. I don't know.. but the thought of me failing the examination makes me sick. I don't even know on how am I going to handle it.. But I know na the real reason why I didn't take the board exam these past three years is because.. Mayabang ako. Me.. a child na never nawalan sa honour list mula pre-school hangang 1st year high school. Ako na kahit nagloko na ako nung 2nd year high school e tingin pa din ng mga teacher namin na matalino ako. Ako, na basehan ng mga friends ko sa board exam.. One of my friend even told me na.. "Mida, pag hindi ka makapasa.. ibig sabihin wala na kaming pag-asa".. Ayokong mag take kasi mayabang ako. Ayokong bumagsak kasi nahihiya ako sa mga taong ang taas ng tingin sa akin.. In short.. Mayabang talaga ako..
Not until 2016.. This year, I decided to get rid of myself. I know naman na God has been telling me to take the board. Ayoko lang talaga sumunod... but everything has changed.. March 2016 I enrolled again myself for the October 2016 CPA Board Examination. This time, I followed what God has been telling me. I remembered God telling me sa isa sa mga devotion ko na.. "It's not about you passing the board exam, mida.. It's about you following what I want you to do.." That very moment I surrendered to Him the result of the board.
July 21, 2016.. My devotion about the story of Jonah.. Then I realized how I am alike with Jonah.. If you are familiar with Jonah's story, we know na he's asking God to kill him kasi hindi nagkatotoo yung prophesy nya which is inutos ni God sa kanya at nahihiya sya sa mga tao. Well that's me.. I'm vey very much like Jonah. Like him I dont want to follow God when He told me to take the board exam. Ayoko! Kasi baka bumagsak ako at mapahiya ako. Pero kahit anong gawin ko nili-lead pa din ako ni Lord mag take e. He's continuously putting the desire in my heart to take it.. So I followed.. Pero this time.. My ending isn't alike with Jonah. Hindi ako nahihiyang bumagsak ako.. Hindi talaga. Kung nahihiya man ako, kay Lord yun. Kasi binigay nya lahat sa akin e. Pero I know na I didn't give my all. Pero kahit ganon, I know na may reason why He allowed this thing to happen. And I would still praise Him.
I praise God for the result of the examination. I praise Him for giving me a peace in my heart. I praise Him for being with me and to overcome my fear of failing. I praise God dahil no matter what... He's still my Lord and Savior, and nothing will ever change that! I praise God for I know that He will do something good out of this failure. I praise God for He is good. Yes He is good! always and forever... :)
Amazingly, God's message for me after the result was released....
Faith never knows where it is being led, but it loves and knows the one who is leading.
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