Him out from my messy box.

December 28, 2012

I was cleaning the cabinet under my bed where I usually put my random stuff then suddenly I found an old wallet of mine. When I opened it, I saw a photo of him and I was just reminded of how we used to be. Well I didn’t cry though in fact, I smiled. I was really happy to see his face again even if it was just only an ID picture of him. Yeah I know pathetic. Blah blah I’m just missing him, perhaps.. 

Sorry for the very messy things up there. :p Well you know now why I do really need to fix things up under my bed :p

TO WES:
Haha! I don't know if you'll find out that I posted your face here on my blog but yeah you look good here with that straight face thing haha! *wink*

(c) To your ID pic :D

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My pink babies ♥

Piglet && Pinky

Pinky: June 23, 2009 (From Chris)

Piglet : October 04, 2010 (From Toni and Errol)

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Cutie baby~ ♥

Hi there, meet my old pal – Cutie. He was my cutie little stuff and he's with me for over 10 years I guess. I do really love this stuff but unfortunately I lost him when we moved to a new house. I was really sad, like really really really super sad when I realized that I did really lose him. I’m so bad.

So Cutie my dear baby, where ever you are this space on my blog is especially for you baby dearest. I love you!!~~

FYI. For how many times, I wished that Cutie was a real thing that can talk. You know, cute little creature with you. Isn’t so adorable? Yeah I know a little creepy but seriously I love him.

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Memories on track.

Multiply would be shutting down at the end of the year and  I don’t want to lose my tons of pictures and memories that I’d kept in that site for almost seven years, so I decided to move some photos together with the stories behind them here on my BlogSpot. ^^ 

Enjoy reading and yeah go and laugh to some of my old pictures.XD

All love, Mida ♥

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Match Me by Liz Appel

Hi there!  Well this is kind a late book review for me. I finished reading this book last month I guess but I was so lazy to give my reviews about it. Anyway, I’m already here. 

Synopsis:

Bonnie Nichols wasn't the kind of girl to crash a wedding. Or throw things. But somehow, she ends up doing both...at her ex-boyfriend's wedding.

Bonnie has been in love with Chase Somers since elementary school and seeing him at the altar with the absolute wrong girl causes her to do the unthinkable—toss a shoe in his direction in order to try and stop it. But she doesn’t count on the shoe knocking him out. Nor does she count on the entire church knowing it was her who did the throwing. The shoe doesn’t stop the wedding, but it does make her the laughingstock of her town.

As Bonnie copes with both the embarrassment of her actions and the loss of the boy she has always loved, her best friend Jill attempts to yank her out of her despair by pushing her to use Match Me, an online dating service. Despite her skepticism, Bonnie agrees to go on a few dates, dates that end up going comically bad.

Convinced that she will be single forever, an unanticipated complication causes Bonnie to take stock of her life and the people around her. Was she really ever in love with Chase Somers? Or was loving him simply the easy thing to do? 

Crashing the wedding—and throwing that shoe—just may end up being the smartest thing she's ever done.

Miida’s POV

Well yeah! Look this novel was amazing! I mean, though it’s really short and you can read it like the whole day it’s really great! Look it’s very precise and straight to the point. I really like the personality of Bonnie, I was kinda like her too.  So in love and would even try to do silly and unpredictable things.

I just really  Chase! I mean, he was really an asshole! There was a part in the story where in they saw each other in an ice cream parlor and then Chase told Bonnie that Angela, Chase’s wife would be going somewhere far and he’s actually asking Bonnie to see him and to do the old stuff. See? That was a clear evidence that Chase was a totally an asshole! I hate these kind of mhatean who thinks they were so high and all that. They don’t even know how to see the importance of woman. I do really hate them!

On the other hand, I do really love Paul. He really knows how to appreciate a girl. He even see the importance of Bonnie way back when Chase and Bonnie were still together. He even ditch Chase as his best friend for Bonnie. It only shows that Paul saw how worthless was Chase is.

Favorite part…. Of course the end part. ^^ I love how Paul approaches Bonnie and how he told her everything about his feelings. Very manly and I did really fall for it!

The novel was so good that I would read another novel by Liz Appel. ^^

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God never fail me!

I would really just like to thank God for helping me to accomplish a very important matter in my life. I don’t want to say too much regarding this matter instead I would just really want to lift everything up to Him.


Thank you dear God, this one is all for you. You gave me a love of my life and even though it didn’t last long enough I do still thank you. I made this not only for him but for you as well. To show you my dear Lord how much grateful I am for the blessing that you had given me. I love you Lord God.

Here were the photos while doing it from 1 am - 8 am during December 20, 2012. While preparing for my 20th 20 and Christmas gift. ^^

The materials..

Getting ready..

While cutting the smiley wrapper.

Working in process. ^^

Writing random notes for the message box.

Present. ^^ 

Sorting the messages. 

Finished! Thank you dear God!

I love You so much dear God. Before I started doing it I prayed for Your guidance so that I would finish it and You never failed to help me. For 7 long hours I know You were by my side. Thank You so much Lord God. Thank You!

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Unanswered Prayers

For the past months I kept on praying for something and yet nothing happened. I felt like God wasn’t listening to me anymore. I was convincing myself for the past three months that maybe God was just so busy that’s why He wasn’t able to hear me nor to answer my prayers. I was also thinking that maybe my prayers were not just really relevant that’s why it’s not in His list at all. Yeah I know there are a lot of prayers around the world from different people; and yet here I am asking for a heart thingy problem. For some it’s really irrelevant, some may just laugh at me at all. But believe me or not, this thing means a lot to me. 

Well I am a kind of person who is really contented with my life. I don’t pray for a lot of things. I just pray to Him to ask for forgiveness, for protection, and to give thanks. I can truly feel how much blessed really I am. For the past few months I would say that this is the only time again where in I am really asking for His great help for something that I know I can’t really do alone. But for three months that I’ve been praying, nothing really happened. Well there are signs where in I would say that maybe God just really wants me to wait. Yeah last month I heard something and made me realized God’s answer-- to wait. I did, and I am still on the same spot keep on waiting. But yeah, waiting is really difficult to do. It’s really difficult because you aren’t really sure if you are still waiting for something or if it will be really worthy in the end. It’s like playing poker waiting for the flop. 

But this week, God spoke to me again. Friday, December 07, 2012 when I attended J-Zone Live, the topic was all about our unanswered prayers. We tend to pray and pray but there are times where in God is just really in silent. It seems like He isn’t really there hearing us. Just like in the story of Zechariah and Elizabeth in the book of Luke 1. They were both followers of God and they’ve been praying for a child for how many years, but they already grew old and yet their prayers weren’t answered. When they were both old already an angel said to them that they will bear a son and their son will be a blessing to many people. That son was John.

Saturday, December 08, 2012 I attended D-Group bible study and we’d talked about love and I was really like “God, are you really talking to me? It’s twice in a row. Is this topic really meant for me?” You know, God is really wonderful. Though I am not yet a fully developed Christian, yet He is using different people to move in my life as an instrument for me to hear Him. It was really amazing. 

Then today when I attended CCF, the topic was about our dreams that are not yet fulfilled. It’s all about waiting again. Pastor Edmund Chan even said that “Waiting means trusting in God.” And I do agree on that.

It may really take some time for God to answer our prayers, but it doesn’t mean that he isn’t hearing our prayers. It’s just that, He will answer us in a right time, in God’s time indeed. 

I don’t really know if God will give me exactly what I want. But I will continue to hope. I will be here and I will be strong. I know He will give what’s best for me. I will trust in Him and will continue to follow Him whether He answers me or not. I will stand firm. I will. So please Lord God do help me.

God is the God who keeps His promises even when His promises are impossible to keep.

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Sleepless nights

So here I am. Writing and doing different crazy stuffs once again.  I think I do really need to take my medicine by now, what do you think my dear reader? I am really losing my mind. 

Well I do think that; perhaps each and everyone has at least a point where in their lives, they’ve been this crazy or crazier rather; who knows? Those times where in we really want to sleep but our activeness is keeping us awake and pushing us to do crazy things. 

To cut the story short, here are my pictures at this moment. My mind isn’t really functioning very well. Yeah you are right, it’s malfunctioning already. I do really need to have some rest. But oh no! We ordered some foods from McDonald’s so I can’t sleep yet. Yeah yeah I know, I am talking nonsense already. So I think it’ll be better to call it a night, yeah midnight indeed! Goodnight for now.

Spread love :p

Disregard everything. >;p

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Battlefield

Every day it feels like I am in a war. The battle between my heart and brain is quite somehow very confusing and depressing at the same time. It’s almost three months and I thought I’ll be pretty fine by this point of time, but I guess I was wrong. I was wrong to think and to believe that I am strong enough to overcome this pain.  

Every day is a tough one for me. Every day I am fighting the urge of texting you or doing something that will be very silly. I think I am winning with this kind of fight. At least now I know that somehow I can control myself not to contact you; but I’ll admit that yeah it’s hard. It’s very hard, indeed.

Yes! Perhaps I am really wrong. And I am very exhausted in this situation. I don’t think I can handle this for a longer period of time. I am afraid that I can’t really stand it anymore. I am weak, yes I am. And I am tired. I am really tired with all of these things that are happening in my life.

Even though I am in so much pain already, I know I need to be strong. I know that you will not be happy to see me like this. I know that you’ll be happy to know that I am doing well and that’s what I want to show you. I will be fine for you. I will be intact and still. For you I will win this fight.

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