God is greater than anything that happens to us.

It's been three years since I graduated when I finally had a chance to take the board exam. I enrolled myself sa mga review school before.. but I stopped reviewing after the first pre-board. I never finished the review.. why?

Kasi duwag ako e.. Mayabang din ako.. Duwag ako kasi I don't want to take the board knowing na baka bumagsak ako.. I know hindi ko kaya yung sakit. I don't know.. but the thought of me failing the examination makes me sick. I don't even know on how am I going to handle it.. But I know na the real reason why I didn't take the board exam these past three years is because.. Mayabang ako. Me.. a child na never nawalan sa honour list mula pre-school hangang 1st year high school. Ako na kahit nagloko na ako nung 2nd year high school e tingin pa din ng mga teacher namin na matalino ako. Ako, na basehan ng mga friends ko sa board exam.. One of my friend even told me na.. "Mida, pag hindi ka makapasa.. ibig sabihin wala na kaming pag-asa".. Ayokong mag take kasi mayabang ako. Ayokong bumagsak kasi nahihiya ako sa mga taong ang taas ng tingin sa akin.. In short.. Mayabang talaga ako..


Not until 2016.. This year, I decided to get rid of myself. I know naman na God has been telling me to take the board. Ayoko lang talaga sumunod... but everything has changed.. March 2016 I enrolled again myself for the October 2016 CPA Board Examination. This time, I followed what God has been telling me. I remembered God telling me sa isa sa mga devotion ko na.. "It's not about you passing the board exam, mida.. It's about you following what I want you to do.." That very moment I surrendered to Him the result of the board.

July 21, 2016.. My devotion about the story of Jonah.. Then I realized how I am alike with Jonah.. If you are familiar with Jonah's story, we know na he's asking God to kill him kasi hindi nagkatotoo yung prophesy nya which is inutos ni God sa kanya at nahihiya sya sa mga tao. Well that's me.. I'm vey very much like Jonah. Like him I dont want to follow God when He told me to take the board exam. Ayoko! Kasi baka bumagsak ako at mapahiya ako. Pero kahit anong gawin ko nili-lead pa din ako ni Lord mag take e. He's continuously putting the desire in my heart to take it.. So I followed.. Pero this time.. My ending isn't alike with Jonah. Hindi ako nahihiyang bumagsak ako.. Hindi talaga. Kung nahihiya man ako, kay Lord yun. Kasi binigay nya lahat sa akin e. Pero I know na I didn't give my all. Pero kahit ganon, I know na may reason why He allowed this thing to happen. And I would still praise Him.

I praise God for the result of the examination. I praise Him for giving me a peace in my heart. I praise Him for being with me and to overcome my fear of failing. I praise God dahil no matter what... He's still my Lord and Savior, and nothing will ever change that! I praise God for I know that He will do something good out of this failure. I praise God for He is good. Yes He is good! always and forever... :)

Amazingly, God's message for me after the result was released....

Faith never knows where it is being led, but it loves and knows the one who is leading.

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Best boy friend, Reymus..

Tonight I had a very good conversation with my best boy friend, Reymus. Well.. He came here in Eastwood around 12am. We just sat somewhere and we really had a good chat.

I learned a lot from him. He made me realized a lot of things. Well, that's us. When we talk... It's always about our lives.. The things we would like to do and accomplish... Our past.. Our present.. And our future.

I am writing this because I would want to remember how blessed I am to have friends like Mus. I want to remind myself few years from now that there is someone who made me feel wonderful. A friend who dreamed with me. A friend who tried to reach it with me. A friend who encouraged me. A friend who's hungry to pursue God. A friend who knows my heart beat. A friend who knows me. A friend who's genuinely true. A friend whom God sent to me.

We basically end our conversation past 3 in the midnight. I still want to talk to him tho. But I'm so sleepy na. Hehe.

Such a blessing to have Reymus as my best boy friend.

Thank you God for his life. I thank you for allowing me to part of his life as he is in my life.

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Sinking Deep

I was having my lunch with Jesus this afternoon. When I heard this song played on my phone... This song was already in my phone for such a long time. But it never hit me before like it did a while ago. It seems like, the song knows what's in my heart. It says exactly the unspoken words of mine.

"Sinking Deep"

[Verse 1:]
Standing here in your presence
In a grace so relentless
I am won by perfect love
Wrapped within the arms of heaven
In a peace that lasts forever
Sinking deep in mercy's sea

[Chorus:]
I'm wide awake, drawing close, stirred by grace
And all my heart is yours
All fear removed, I breathe you in, I lean into
Your love, oh, your love

[Verse 2:]
When I'm lost you pursue me
Lift my head to see your glory
Lord of all, so beautiful
Here in you I find shelter
Captivated by the splendor
Of your face, my secret place

[Chorus:]
I'm wide awake, drawing close, stirred by grace
And all my heart is yours
All fear removed, I breathe you in, I lean into
Your love, oh, your love

[Bridge:]
Your love so deep is washing over me
Your face is all I seek, you are my everything
Jesus Christ, You are my one desire
Lord, hear my only cry, to know you all my life

[Chorus:]
I'm wide awake, drawing close, stirred by grace
And all my heart is yours
All fear removed, I breathe you in, I lean into
Your love, oh, your love

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Depend on God

Life is not simple, and God’s ways are not our ways. Making the right decision may come at a cost. But in God’s eternal plan, His blessings arrive in due time. 

Lord, thank You for the examples of courage and obedience in Your Word. Help us learn from their mistakes and from their wise choices, as we make our choice to serve You.

God helps those who depend on Him.

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Like Sheep

Good morning! I just want to share my devotion for today... 

One of my daily chores when I lived with my grandfather in northern Ghana was taking care of sheep. Each morning I took them out to pasture and returned by evening. That was when I first noticed how stubborn sheep can be. Whenever they saw a farm, for instance, their instinct drove them right into it, getting me in trouble with the farmers on a number of occasions.

Sometimes when I was tired from the heat and resting under a tree, I observed the sheep dispersing into the bushes and heading for the hills, causing me to chase after them and scratching my skinny legs in the shrubs. I had a hard time directing the animals away from danger and trouble, especially when robbers sometimes raided the field and stole stray sheep.

So I quite understand when Isaiah says, "We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to our own way" (53:6). We stray in many ways: desiring and doing what displeases our Lord, hurting other people by our conduct, and being distracted from spending time with God and His Word because we are too busy or lack interest. We behave like sheep in the field. 

Fortunately for us, we have the Good Shepherd who laid down His life for us (John 10:11) and who carries our sorrows and our sins (Isa. 53:4-6). And as our shepherd, He calls us back to safe pasture that we might follow Him more closely.

Shepherd of my soul, I do wander at times. I’m grateful that You’re always seeking me to bring me back to Your side.

If you want God to lead you, be willing to follow.

My Reflection: I just realized that I am still like a sheep. Often times I still get astray. There are a lot of distractions that's keeping me away from my shepherd. I can only imagine how God wants me/us to be with Him. He wants to lead us so we can go home to our forever home in heaven safely. He doesn't want us to be stolen by the enemy. Our shepherd loves us so dearly, what an amazing God. Thank you fathered God! Truly truly, you deserved all the praises!

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An Old Machine

Today, my office mate used this machine. I was so stunned when I saw the machine, so I asked her if I can use it. I was so happy while typing because *wow* it is really amazing, indeed! I really don't know what am I going to type. So I typed my favorite verse instead. :) It's really wonderful how things evolved. From this type writing machine to this computer that I am using now. 

Despite of all the new things around us, it feels good to sometimes go back to the old one. Once they were used and needed as much as we need the computers that we are using today. It feels good to use the old things that were used by other people with the same age as I am now decades ago. 

It's like a time machine, I felt like I was one of the people who used this years and years ago. I remember when I was still a kid, I used to see this at home.. then few years after that, I saw the more modern one which was the electric typewriter. Being a small kid, I used to press the keys.. pressing the keys yet composing nothing. Today, I got the chance to press the keys of the typewriter again.. but this time, I am composing something.. I am really writing something.. one of my favorite verse in the Bible, "Galatians 2:20".  

Praise be to God with this machinery! 

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This is the Season

Summer is nearly over, no more sweaty moments. This is the season I've been waiting for. Rainy season, the season for me to go and enjoy what the world is offering outside. 

It's like love at first sight when I saw the rain dropped. It's really magical in a way that... I can't contained the excitement. 

New season.. new reason to smile, to laugh, to enjoy, and to love. 

It might look gloomy in the outside, but in the inside it is pure of happiness and thanksgiving. 

Happy rainy days everyone! 

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2016 Movies

Deadpool

Based upon Marvel Comics’ most unconventional anti-hero, DEADPOOL tells the origin story of former Special Forces operative turned mercenary Wade Wilson, who after being subjected to a rogue experiment that leaves him with accelerated healing powers, adopts the alter ego Deadpool. Armed with his new abilities and a dark, twisted sense of humor, Deadpool hunts down the man who nearly destroyed his life.

 Really funny. It's really a different kind of super hero.



The Choice

“The Choice” tells the story of Travis Parker (Walker) and Gabby Holland (Palmer), who meet first as neighbors in a small coastal town and end up pursuing a relationship that neither could have foreseen. Spanning a decade and tracing the evolution of a love affair that is ultimately tested by life’s most defining events, this story features a memorable ensemble of friends and family in Sparks’s beloved North Carolina setting, culminating in the question that every couple must ask themselves: how far would you go to keep the hope of love alive?

 Novel written by Nicholas Sparks, one of my favorite writer. Good as always.  



Gods of Egypt

Magic, monsters, gods and madness reign throughout the palaces and pyramids of the Nile River Valley in this action-adventure inspired by the classic mythology of Egypt. With the survival of mankind hanging in the balance, an unexpected hero takes a thrilling journey to save the world and rescue his true love. Set (Gerard Butler), the merciless god of darkness, has usurped Egypt’s throne, plunging the once peaceful and prosperous empire into chaos and conflict. With only a handful of heroic rebels opposing Set’s savage rule, Bek (Brenton Thwaites), a bold and defiant mortal, enlists the aid of powerful god Horus (Nikolaj Coster-Waldau) in an unlikely alliance against the evil overlord. As their breathtaking battle against Set and his henchmen take them into the afterlife and across the heavens, both god and mortal must pass tests of courage and sacrifice if they hope to prevail in the spectacular final confrontation.

  So-so? Some of my friends who watched it along with me doesn't like it, tho.



How to be single

New York City is full of lonely hearts seeking the right match, and what Alice, Robin, Lucy, Meg, Tom and David all have in common is the need to learn how to be single in a world filled with ever-evolving definitions of love.
 So so so Fun-nnneh!!! I was quite convinced to spend more time with myself more. 


Always Be My Maybe

 The movie was good. Funny. 




Batman vs. Superman : Dawn of Justice

Fearing the actions of a god-like superhero left unchecked, Gotham City’s own formidable, forceful vigilante takes on Metropolis’s most revered, modern-day savior, while the world wrestles with what sort of hero it really needs. And with Batman vs Superman at war with one another, a new threat quickly arises, putting mankind in greater danger than it’s ever known before.

 I am not really a fan but I like the fight scene tho. 



The Divergent Series: Allegiant

After the earth-shattering revelations of Insurgent, in Allegiant Part 1 Tris (Shailene Woodley) must escape with Four (Theo James) beyond the Wall that encircles Chicago to finally discover the shocking truth of what lies behind it.

Even though I haven't seen the movie prior to this series, I enjoyed the movie. 



The Huntsman: Winter's War

The fantastical world of Snow White and the Huntsman expands to reveal how the fates of The Huntsman Eric and Queen Ravenna are deeply and dangerously intertwined. 

It was nice. 

Captain America: Civil War

I enjoyed watching the movie. In fact, I like it better compared to Batman Vs. Superman. 


Just the three of Us

It was already midnight when we decided to watch the movie. So we went to RW even though it's already past 2 am. The movie was really good that's why I didn't fall asleep while watching the movie. 


This Time

We watched this movie in celebration of Mother's day. The movie was good. The soundtrack gave me LSS. hehe. 

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Another Used To Be

One of the best feeling in this world is the feeling of being in love. The butterflies in your stomach, the bloom in your face,  that smile on your lips, the twinkling eyes, and the happiness that you can't seems to explain. It feels so good. It feels so perfect. Everything seems so good, until the time that you'll wake up and it's over. 

Meeting

Year 2013 when we first met each other. It was a night to remember, indeed. Everything seems so perfect. The man in black shirt and white shorts had just caught my attention. He seemed so nervous when he asked for my name and my number. 

The Chase

The next day, he texted me and I texted back. We started talking to each other. We started Skype-ing. We started seeing each other. 

Honeymoon

It was midnight when he asked me if I can be his girlfriend, and I said Yes. I can still remember the smile on his face and the twinkle in his eyes. It was a night to remember. First few months, he was still that man. He used to call me every morning and every night. He was so proud and happy to introduced me to his friends. He was so caring, understanding and loving even though I was clumsy, moody, or even weird at times. This was the stage when I fell so deeply in love with him. 

Comfortable

Months passed by, things were slowly getting different. We're so comfortable with each other being around. We're now doing our own activities. He's playing with his video games while I was just right there beside him reading some books. We're on the couch while he's watching the TV and I was just right there surfing the net. He's surfing the net while I was cooking for our dinner. My "surprises" that used to bring smiles and happiness to him, were now all taken for granted.  Things just happened as a part of our daily routine. Being together yet so far with each other. We were so comfortable with each other that we've created our own world without the other one. We got so comfortable that we were not aware that we were also creating distance from one another. 

Downhill

We got so busy with our own lives. Then we woke up not wanting or needing one another. 

Breaking Up

And... we officially ended everything. 

Strangers Again

We are now back to being strangers again. Sadly, but we are just another used to be. 

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Psalms 118:24

14th of April 2016

I've been asking God for direction and guidance on what to do with things that has been happening with me this past few months. Then this morning as I do my quiet time.. God gave me a clear answer thru Psalms 118:24
 
"This is the day the Lord has made; we will rejoice and be glad in it"

So often we focus on the disappointments of yesterday or the uncertainties of tomorrow and miss God's matchless gift to us: Today!

Dear God,

I want to mark this day that is why I am writing this blog. I want to remember how faithful you have been to me. I know someday, all these pain that I am feeling now will just be a part of my history. I might made and probably will make more wrong decisions in my life, I know there will always be one good decision that I will always make... and that is the decision of choosing you. I thought I will never experience this thing.. but here I go again. But this time I know that you are with me. Father God, I'll only be praying for one thing.. please be with me in every step of my life. I know it will never be easy but I do believe that every step will be worthy. Thank you for everything. I giving you all the praises and glory back. I love you, Jesus.

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Letting Go?

Is it really easy to unlearn things? Is it really easy to change the things you "used to do"? Is it really easy to forget what you have mastered long time ago? Is it really easy to let go of the things that has sentimental value for you? Is it really easy to let go of the people in your life? People in your life that means a lot to you?

For me.. It's hard. For all the questions I have, the only answer I can give is a big no. I can't just unlearn things I learned from that person. I just can't change the things I used to do.

It's hard to let go of everything that you had dreamed of. It's hard to forget all the memories that you had shared with that person. It's hard to unlearn the things that you know about that person. His favorite color, his favorite food, the way he sleeps, the way he talks when he is so excited to share a story with you, the things that pisses him off, how he wants his eggs to be cooked, his daily routine before he goes to bed, his preferred sleeping position, the way he gets so excited every time his favorite PS games will be released, the way he plays with the dogs, every time he will worry about the bills, the way he laughs (specially when he watched Jackass), simply everything about him.

Surely it will be hard, but I don't have any choice but to be strong. Perhaps this is just really where we are heading to. To go on with our separate lives.

It's time to let go of all the hurt, bitterness, and disappointments. Gather and bring along all the good memories. As we move forward and face life. New life, indeed!

I know and I do believe that all things happen for a reason. It may either teach us a lesson or lead us to where we truly belong.

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Anilao, Batangas

Spent my 2016 Valentines Day in this tranquil place somewhere in Anilao, Batangas.

I also had a chance to spent my quiet time here. :)

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Aurora, Baler

We spent the Chinese New Year at Costa Pacifica, Aurora, Baler.

February 6 - 8, 2016

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