I was cleaning the cabinet under my
bed where I usually put my random stuff then suddenly I found an old wallet of
mine. When I opened it, I saw a photo of him and I was just reminded of how we
used to be. Well I didn’t cry though in fact, I smiled. I was really happy to
see his face again even if it was just only an ID picture of him. Yeah I know pathetic. Blah blah I’m just
missing him, perhaps..
Sorry for the very messy things up there. :p Well you know now why I do really need to fix things up under my bed :p
TO WES:
Haha! I don't know if you'll find out that I posted your face here on my blog but yeah you look good here with that straight face thing haha! *wink*
Hi there, meet my old pal – Cutie.
He was my cutie little stuff and he's with me for over 10 years I guess. I do really love this stuff but unfortunately
I lost him when we moved to a new house. I was really sad, like really really
really super sad when I realized that I did really lose him. I’m so bad.
So
Cutie my dear baby, where ever you are this space on my blog is especially for
you baby dearest. I love you!!~~
FYI. For how many times, I wished
that Cutie was a real thing that can talk. You know, cute little creature with
you. Isn’t so adorable? Yeah I know a little creepy but seriously I love him.
Multiply would be shutting down at the end of the year
andI don’t want to lose my tons of
pictures and memories that I’d kept in that site for almost seven years, so I decided to move some
photos together with the stories behind them here on my BlogSpot. ^^
Enjoy reading and yeah go and laugh to some of my old pictures.XD
Hi there! Well this is kind a late book
review for me. I finished reading this book last month I guess but I was so lazy
to give my reviews about it. Anyway, I’m already here.
Synopsis:
Bonnie
Nichols wasn't the kind of girl to crash a wedding. Or throw things. But
somehow, she ends up doing both...at her ex-boyfriend's wedding. Bonnie has been in
love with Chase Somers since elementary school and seeing him at the altar with
the absolute wrong girl causes her to do the unthinkable—toss a shoe in his
direction in order to try and stop it. But she doesn’t count on the shoe knocking
him out. Nor does she count on the entire church knowing it was her who did the
throwing. The shoe doesn’t stop the wedding, but it does make her the
laughingstock of her town. As Bonnie copes
with both the embarrassment of her actions and the loss of the boy she has
always loved, her best friend Jill attempts to yank her out of her despair by
pushing her to use Match Me, an online dating service. Despite her skepticism,
Bonnie agrees to go on a few dates, dates that end up going comically bad. Convinced that she
will be single forever, an unanticipated complication causes Bonnie to take
stock of her life and the people around her. Was she really ever in love with
Chase Somers? Or was loving him simply the easy thing to do? Crashing the
wedding—and throwing that shoe—just may end up being the smartest thing she's
ever done.
Miida’s
POV
Well
yeah! Look this novel was amazing! I mean, though it’s really short and you can
read it like the whole day it’s really great! Look it’s very precise and
straight to the point. I really like the personality of Bonnie, I was kinda
like her too.So in love and would even
try to do silly and unpredictable things.
I
just really Chase! I mean, he was really an asshole! There was a part in
the story where in they saw each other in an ice cream parlor and then Chase
told Bonnie that Angela, Chase’s wife would be going somewhere far and he’s
actually asking Bonnie to see him and to do the old stuff. See? That was a
clear evidence that Chase was a totally an asshole! I hate these kind of mhatean
who thinks they were so high and all that. They don’t even know how to see the
importance of woman. I do really hate them!
On
the other hand, I do really love Paul. He really knows how to appreciate a
girl. He even see the importance of Bonnie way back when Chase and Bonnie were
still together. He even ditch Chase as his best friend for Bonnie. It only
shows that Paul saw how worthless was Chase is.
Favorite
part…. Of course the end part. ^^ I love how Paul approaches Bonnie and how he
told her everything about his feelings. Very manly and I did really fall for
it!
The
novel was so good that I would read another novel by Liz Appel. ^^
I would really just like to thank God for helping me to
accomplish a very important matter in my life. I don’t want to say too much
regarding this matter instead I would just really want to lift everything up to
Him. Thank you dear God, this one is all for you. You gave me a
love of my life and even though it didn’t last long enough I do still thank
you. I made this not only for him but for you as well. To show you my dear Lord
how much grateful I am for the blessing that you had given me. I love you Lord God. Here were the photos while doing it from 1 am - 8 am during December 20, 2012. While preparing for my 20th 20 and Christmas gift. ^^
The materials..
Getting ready..
While cutting the smiley wrapper.
Working in process. ^^
Writing random notes for the message box.
Present. ^^
Sorting the messages.
Finished! Thank you dear God!
I love You so much dear God. Before I started doing it I prayed for Your guidance so that I would finish it and You never failed to help me. For 7 long hours I know You were by my side. Thank You so much Lord God. Thank You!
For the past months I kept on praying for something and yet
nothing happened. I felt like God wasn’t listening to me anymore. I was
convincing myself for the past three months that maybe God was just so busy
that’s why He wasn’t able to hear me nor to answer my prayers. I was also
thinking that maybe my prayers were not just really relevant that’s why it’s
not in His list at all. Yeah I know there are a lot of prayers around the world
from different people; and yet here I am asking for a heart thingy problem. For
some it’s really irrelevant, some may just laugh at me at all. But believe me
or not, this thing means a lot to me.
Well I am a kind of person who is really contented with my
life. I don’t pray for a lot of things. I just pray to Him to ask for forgiveness,
for protection, and to give thanks. I can truly feel how much blessed really I
am. For the past few months I would say that this is the only time again where
in I am really asking for His great help for something that I know I can’t
really do alone. But for three months that I’ve been praying, nothing really
happened. Well there are signs where in I would say that maybe God just really
wants me to wait. Yeah last month I heard something and made me realized God’s
answer-- to wait. I did, and I am still on the same spot keep on waiting. But yeah,
waiting is really difficult to do. It’s really difficult because you aren’t
really sure if you are still waiting for something or if it will be really
worthy in the end. It’s like playing poker waiting for the flop.
But this week, God spoke to me again. Friday, December 07,
2012 when I attended J-Zone Live, the topic was all about our unanswered
prayers. We tend to pray and pray but there are times where in God is just
really in silent. It seems like He isn’t really there hearing us. Just like in the
story of Zechariah and Elizabeth in the book of Luke 1. They were both
followers of God and they’ve been praying for a child for how many years, but
they already grew old and yet their prayers weren’t answered. When they were
both old already an angel said to them that they will bear a son and their son
will be a blessing to many people. That son was John.
Saturday, December 08, 2012 I attended D-Group bible study
and we’d talked about love and I was
really like “God, are you really talking to me? It’s twice in a row. Is this
topic really meant for me?” You know, God is really wonderful. Though I am
not yet a fully developed Christian, yet He is using different people to move in my
life as an instrument for me to hear Him. It was really amazing.
Then today when I attended CCF, the topic was about our
dreams that are not yet fulfilled. It’s all about waiting again. Pastor Edmund
Chan even said that “Waiting means
trusting in God.” And I do agree on that.
It may really take
some time for God to answer our prayers, but it doesn’t mean that he isn’t
hearing our prayers. It’s just that, He will answer us in a right time, in God’s
time indeed.
I don’t really know if God will give me exactly what I want.
But I will continue to hope. I will be here and I will be strong. I know He
will give what’s best for me. I will trust in Him and will continue to follow
Him whether He answers me or not. I will stand firm. I will. So please Lord God
do help me.
God is the God who keeps His promises even when
His promises are impossible to keep.
So here I am. Writing and doing different crazy stuffs once
again. I think I do really need to take my medicine by now, what do you
think my dear reader? I am really losing my mind.
Well I do think that; perhaps each and everyone has at least
a point where in their lives, they’ve been this crazy or crazier rather; who knows?
Those times where in we really want to sleep but our activeness is keeping us
awake and pushing us to do crazy things.
To cut the story short, here are my pictures at this moment.
My mind isn’t really functioning very well. Yeah you are right, it’s
malfunctioning already. I do really need to have some rest. But oh no! We
ordered some foods from McDonald’s so I can’t sleep yet. Yeah yeah I know, I am
talking nonsense already. So I think it’ll be better to call it a night, yeah
midnight indeed! Goodnight for now.
Every day it feels like I am in a war. The battle between my
heart and brain is quite somehow very confusing and depressing at the same
time. It’s almost three months and I thought I’ll be pretty fine by this point of
time, but I guess I was wrong. I was wrong to think and to believe that I am
strong enough to overcome this pain.
Every day is a tough one for me. Every day I am fighting the
urge of texting you or doing something that will be very silly. I think I am
winning with this kind of fight. At least now I know that somehow I can control
myself not to contact you; but I’ll admit that yeah it’s hard. It’s very hard,
indeed.
Yes! Perhaps I am really wrong. And I am very exhausted in
this situation. I don’t think I can handle this for a longer period of time. I
am afraid that I can’t really stand it anymore. I am weak, yes I am. And I am
tired. I am really tired with all of these things that are happening in my
life.
Even though I am in so much pain already, I know I need to
be strong. I know that you will not be happy to see me like this. I know that
you’ll be happy to know that I am doing well and that’s what I want to show
you. I will be fine for you. I will be intact and still. For you I will win
this fight.
I was taking a bath that time when a sudden rush filled my senses while I was thinking of
something else. Yeah in other words I was in the middle of day dreaming about random things when a
flashback from the history visited me. A history of you and I.
Do you still remember the first time we held hands? It was
already late that time. We were waiting for a jeep that time because you are
going to send me home. Then a lot of people came and rush into the jeep and
that’s why we have to be fast and competent. And you held my hand so that I’ll
not be carried by the people who were rushing to get into the jeep. We held
hands for quite some time. Long enough for me to feel and to study your hand.
Will it ever happen again? Or it will just remain in the history of our story?
May it happen again or not, one thing will be sure; it will always remain in my
memory and in my heart.
Wherever you are right now, I hope you are okay and doing
just fine. I hope you are happy and you’re successfully fulfilling your desire
in life. I hope and will always pray the best for you.
PURE. UNPLANNED.
PERFECT. Those were Nick’s summer plans before Sasha stepped into the picture.
With the collateral damage from his parents’ divorce still settling and Dani
(his girl of the moment) up for nearly anything, complications are the last
thing he needs. All that changes, though, when Nick runs into Sasha at the
beach in July. Suddenly he’s neck-deep in a relationship and surprised to find
he doesn’t mind in the least. But Nick’s world shifts again when Sasha breaks
up with him. Then, weeks later, while Nick’s still reeling from the breakup,
she turns up at his doorstep and tells him she’s pregnant. Nick finds himself
struggling once more to understand the girl he can’t stop caring for, the girl
who insists that it’s still over. (Credit: Summary from the back of the
book)
So yeah? You had
the summary out there. I would say that the book was pretty unique. This book
was actually the first ever novel I’d read that is coming from a man’s
perspective. We all know that women are more likely to speak and talk almost
everything about their lives. That’s make this novel pretty much different from
others. You know honestly speaking I always wanted to know what’s inside of a
man’s head. You know, men are pretty much like a big secret. And that’s the big
difference of Nick among other protagonist.
Nick showed his
love, weakness, care, and everything that can rarely be found among men. He’s also shown that “speechless” thing which
is very much common among men. You know, they want to say something but they
can’t just really express their self though. I don’t know why men are like
that. They always tend to act as if they are a maze game where in you have to
go and figure them out all by yourself. It’s kinda depressing though. How men
do usually act as if they don’t really care where in fact they cared a lot.
Some may act as if they cared about you but the truth is they don’t. It’s
really different. They were like a jumbled letters where in you can find different
meaning out of it. They were just really hard.
The funny thing is;
that is what I like most among men. I like their way of being so mysterious. I like
men who are showing their superiority and control. I am more challenge but not
all the time though. Yeah, guys are full of secrets but I think being a girl is
much more an adventure of being a man. Girls are much more difficult news
especially to guys. Like Sasha in the novel. She’s so perfect to show those men
out there that women are a great challenge. That they can’t just read
everything that is on our mind. Sometimes they really need to learn how to read
between the lines.
Going back to the
novel, I just really don’t like what Sasha did like aborting their supposed to
be child. Yeah I get it that they were just sixteen and they can’t have it.
Sorry but I am actually standing on a pro-life side. It’s actually standing for
what you did. They had fun so they have to take responsibility to whatever happens
afterwards. That is always the problem among us humans. We all know how to
enjoy things up but not all of us know how to handle it when things get rough. It’s
all about running, leaving everything behind us. I understand, in the end
everything will depend on us. After all it’s our life. But we must at least
give consideration not only on ourselves but to other people who are involved
as well.
Yeah I know, I
think I am being so personal now. So let’s just leave everything behind as I
close the book. Good night folks.
Last before I go to bed. I’m done watching “200 Pounds
Beauty” – Korean Movie
Cute! =)
The movie was about a huge lady named Hannah Kang who used to be a backup
singer for a pretty singer named Ammy. Well Ammy doesn’t really know how to
sing and that’s why they need Hannah. But Hannah decided to take a plastic
surgery to make her beautiful. When she’s already beautiful she came back and
became a singer known as Jenny; the lead singer this time. But the truth will
always find its way. So during her concert she confessed to all of the people
that she’s not real, that she’s just a product of a plastic surgery. That’s the
fall of Jenny and the rise of Hannah herself.
It’s a
very cute story, isn’t it? I would say that it’s kinda impossible for a 200 pound
lady to transform into a petite one. Right? Roughly, yeah it can be. They says,
“nothing is impossible” right?
Well
reality hurts, that sometimes we can’t see the beauty of a person. We tend to
look at them due to their outside appearance. We are usually blinded by those
things, glamour and shine. Well that is our nature as a person. But still I am
happy because not all of us were like that, or still there is a part of us that
is not like that. We can still appreciate beauty not just in its look but what’s
inside of it. There are so many things that may be deceiving but not only our
eyes can see what’s real and not; I believe that it’s our heart that knows better what
is real from not.
I think
this will be all for tonight. It’s already three in the morning. I better go to
bed. Sorry I just really enjoyed watching tonight. Back to school tomorrow. ^^
So yeah let’s call it a night. Good night.
Hello again. I’d just finished watching “My Little Bride” –
Korean Movie
Okay, so
the movie is all about a fixed marriage between a man named Simon Park and a
seventeen year old girl named Bea Su. They married each other to grant their
grandfathers promise to each other that their children will get marry. But
since their children were both man the promise was transferred to their
grandchildren who happened to be Simon and Bea. This movie’s very good. It’s a
romantic comedy that will make you laugh and fall in love at the same time. I
was in a bad mood today but when I saw the movie, I forgot about my problem for
a little while. ^^ Well in the end Bea realized that she really loved Simon. =)
Well
that will be all. The thing that this movie made me realized; sometimes love is
already their around the corner but we’re just too busy to see it. Well that’s
all. Enjoy! Goodnight.
Done watching another Thai movie
entitled “My True Friend.” I can say that I really envy the characters in the
film. Honestly speaking I’ve been always wishing to have a real group of
friends. I mean like more than four super close friends. I’m not saying that I
don’t have real friends though. All I am saying is, I want a group and I want
to be a part of a group. Though I think it will be hard to maintain a healthy
relationship with them. It will be hard sometimes since you guys came from
different ways. Some maybe hard headed, some may be cool or some maybe a
tripper and blah blah if you know what I mean. Well, I don’t know. I am not
just a group person. You know. Most of the time I want to be alone. Well yeah, sometimes with a company of a
friend. Just that.
About
the movie? It’s about a group of man who are most of the time involved on a
brawl. There’s this guy named Gun, who taught the rest of the guy how to value
their friendship. Well for the record Gun is the only child of a rich couple.
But since they are so rich they failed to give some time to their son. That is
why Gun focused himself to his friends. Like any other friendship they also had
their ups and downs. But they still remained together. They showed and proved
that a real friendship isn’t always about having fun, it isn’t always about
supporting your friend. Sometimes you have to be with them during their
downtimes. You have to remind them what is right and wrong. You have to be
yourself when you are with them. Then, at the latter part Gun died during one
of their fights. But even though he died, all of his beliefs about friendship
remained in their hearts.
It’s
really a good one. It was very inspiring. So yeah. I’ll leave it all up to you
the rest of the reviews and yadda when you already finish watching the movie.
Happy Sunday!
Yeah,
I’d watched it before and since I was bored I watched it again. The movie was
really good. You know, it happened to all of us I guess. Fell in love (whether
real or just a puppy love) during our high school days. Well I guess almost
everyone knows about that movie. The main lesson I learned from this movie is,there is always a chance for everyone and if
it will be the two of you; it will always be the two of you. Very simple
yet it’s really hard. Well I guess, we don’t have to wait. It’s all about
enjoying and doing the things that we must do. And one day we’ll wake up and
the thing that we wanted most yesterday is already here in front of us. That’s
life and we must learn how to deal with it.
Second, “Yes or No”
It’s
another Thai movie. At first I didn’t like to continue watching it when I found
out that it’s a sort of girl to girl love story or what we called the “lesbian”.
Aha, I bet not every one of us likes to watch such movie right? I mean yeah, in
this society we always tend to judge others; even we don’t say something there
is still a part of us thinking and saying something at the back of our minds.
Uh uh admit it. We can’t avoid that. Okay yeah, forget about the sermons. Well
about the movie, it’s really good. I mean like yes! The story was so good. I
think it almost even made me a tom haha. I mean seriously, while watching this
movie I appreciate them. They were also humans duh!? And there is nothing wrong
when you fall in love, whether it’s a boy or girl. That’s love. I actually envy
them at some point. Well enough for my yadda. It’s freakin’ five in the morning
already. I have to go to sleep now because I will be having my date tomorrow.
^^ (Date with God)
Have
you ever been lost? You feel like you are all alone in a midst? Even if you cry
out loud, still no one can hear you. You’ve been trying different outlet just
to ease the pain yet in the end, nothing has changed. Asking yourself what else
can you do? But it seems like no one can help you at all. You’re so lost; all
alone by yourself.
Honestly speaking, I forgot the
last time I’ve ever felt this way. I’ve been so perfectly happy these past few
months in my life. I’ve even learned how to make way even closer to Him. I made
that decision because I can feel Him. I was so grateful during those times. I
can really feel his presence with me. So I asked Him, I asked Him to reveal His
self to me even more because I want to know more about Him. I want Him in my
life.
Then few days after that, all of
these things happened. Slowly, things are killing me. I felt so restricted and
weak. So I prayed. I prayed and prayed. The more I pray, the more things get
worse but every time I will read the bible or any material regarding Him; I can
feel His presence. So I will be very empowered and motivated to fight, to be
strong indeed. Then few hours after that, here we go again. Additional problems
are on their way in my life. My life has been this way these past few weeks;
and honestly speaking, I really don’t know what to do anymore.
I don’t want this. I can’t handle this
thing anymore. I thought I was strong enough to handle everything that will
come in my life but as times goes by; I think these problems were just telling
and showing in my face that I can’t handle them. Yes! They won! I give up. I
can’t really handle this alone. I’ve been praying and talking to You Lord since
then. But why? It seems like you can’t hear me. Why these things were kept on
happening to me every single day? Why? At first I thought it’s just a test. The
moment I told You I want to know You better, then suddenly these things
happened. I said to myself that maybe You just want me to seek for you. I did that
Lord.
I’m so sorry. I am too weak for
these. I can’t really handle these things Lord. I don’t even know if I am
getting all your answers in a right way. Or am I just telling myself that you
showed that sign because that is what I want to see? I really don’t know
anymore. I am throwing my hands up in the air. I swear, I can’t do this
anymore. Please, I know You are just somewhere out there. You can hear me, can’t
You? I am lost right now. And we both know that I am not yet a fully prepared Christian
yet. I am just starting my way to meet You. God, please don’t make this way
hard for me. I am still fragile. Please pick me up now. Please. Hear me now
Lord.
Probably I am such a disappointment
right now. I’ve been starting to follow you few months ago, and yet here I am crying,
still lost. I am so sorry. You know I trust You but I am just me. A twenty year
old lady trying to know You better. Look, I am still young. I am not that
strong yet unlike other people. I still got disappointed every time I pray and
doesn’t hear from You in return. But believe me, I am really trying to be
still. Maybe You know that or yeah maybe not. But really I am. But right now, I
just can’t though I am still trying. I am in pain; so much pain. I know this is
just a test, a test that will make me strong. I know, and I do believe in that.
I do believe in You. I can surpass this. I can.
Even though You are not answering
my prayers, I hope… and I wish that someday You’ll hear it and You’ll finally
answer it. I will still believe in that thing. I trust You. Just like what my
favorite verse says: “Trust in the Lord; and do good; dwell in the land, and
feed on His faithfulness. Delight yourself also in the Lord and He shall give
you the desires of your heart.” –Psalm 37:3-4
“The lord is my portion; therefore
I hope in Him.” –Lam 3:22-24
I will hope. I will trust. Please
be with me. I
will be fine. :|
"Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart."
- Psalm 37:3-4 If I were gonna put something in this section of my blogspot, I will put this verse first. The verse that is keeping me alive. The hope and love, everything in this verse.
Trust in the Lord -- That is the thing that we should always do.. To trust Him. He knows what is good and will be best for us.
"Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart."-- I will continue to believe in this verse. I know that someday He will give what my heart desires.
He knows what our heart desires, we just need to be still.
This would be my very first blog about music. When I just
accidentally heard and listened to this song. I was really like.. nothing, I
was really speechless. Since I was like waiting for an answer from God, then I
heard this out of nowhere. The lyrics accidentally hit me.
You'll never enjoy your life, living inside the box
You're so afraid of taking chances, how you gonna reach the
top?
Rules and regulations,force you to play it safe
Get rid of all the hesitation,it's time for you to seize the
day
Instead of just sit around and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground,the time is now
I'm waiting, waiting, just waiting,
I'm waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines Waiting outside the lines
Try to have no regrets even if it's just tonight
How you gonna walk ahead if you keep living blind
Stuck in my same position, you deserve so much more
There's a whole world around us, just waiting to be explored
Instead of just sit around and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground, the time is now,
just let it go
Dont wanna have to force you to smile
I'm here to help you notice the rainbow
Cause I know, What's in you is out there
I'm waiting, waiting, just waiting,
I'm waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines Waiting outside the lines
I'm trying to be patient (I'm trying to be patient)
the first step is the hardest (the hardest)
I know you can make it, go ahead and take it
I'm Waiting, waiting, just waiting I'm waiting
I'm waiting, waiting, just waiting
I'm waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
You'll never enjoy your life
Living inside the box
You're so afraid of taking chances,
How you gonna reach the top?
If you will analyze the song, the
message is all about waiting for someone who’s just really afraid to take his
chances to enjoy his life. That’s why Greyson was like waiting for that person
to do something. He’s just waiting outside the box because he is actually
giving that person to do something and make his own decision for himself. It’s
a very nice lyrics right, isn’t it? Indeed!
In my own point of view, this is
how God used the song for the answer that I’m praying for. The song seems like
telling me that I should just pause for a while and stay outside the box. I was
there for someone all the time. I was like trying to interfere all the time in
his life. I was like trying to solve everything for him. Yes – which is not
good.
He is a man he has his own
decisions for his life. He needs to prove something in his life. I need to respect
it. I need to be still, to be patient. Even though it will be very hard for me,
I need to let him go. I need to wait.
I don’t know if this is what really
God wants for me; If He is really telling me to pause and wait. But I prayed.
So I will take this chance. This is now my chance to prove to myself that I can
really love. That not only in good times, but in bad times as well. Even if I
am just alone, I know I can do this.
Lord God, please help me. Please tell
me that this is the right thing to do. Tell me that this is really Your answer
to my prayers. Tell me that everything will be fine. Please Lord; tell me that
in time I’ll understand everything. Please Lord God. Please. You know what my
heart desires. I will do this, because I do believe that this is Your answer.
Please continue to guide me oh Lord. Guide him also oh Lord. Please guide him.
Guide us Lord God to find our way back home in each other arms. I am putting and
lifting everything up on Your hands oh Lord. Please. I trust in You. Thank you.
Amen.
-I had just finish the video message that I made
for him. I hope he can read this. Maybe someday. I don’t know. But I am happy
that I’d finished this. ^^ Well I don’t want to say too much this time. *Sigh.
-YAM [yours always, mida]
Dear you,
I know it’s kinda hard for you. There are a lot of things
and issues in our lives right now. You have your own issues and I do either. I
know it’s hard.
These things might just really happen for a reason. We are
still young, and might not even really ready to go on to a more serious world
outside together.
You might just really need to stay inside your world for
some time.
You need to fix and to make things right – alone all by
yourself, without me.
You need to prove some things to yourself. And I know you
can, all by yourself – YOU CAN!
Honestly speaking, everything is so magical. It just
happened that I accidentally played this song out of nowhere. Yeah, I know..
You’re sister’s favorite – Greyson Chance.
So I smiled. A moment ago, I was like really crying and
praying.
I don’t know if I should really stay here and wait, because
honestly speaking I am very afraid that I may not waiting for you anymore. Perhaps,
you are not really there anymore.
So I prayed, I prayed and prayed. God already answered me a
week ago; and He said that I just need to “wait”.
Yet I am not really sure if that’s the answer, I hesitated.
So again, I prayed. Then now, I heard this song and hit me like a ball of fire.
Probably this is the right thing to do.
Just to stay outside the box. To stay outside of your life
right now.
I need to let you go now, to let you grow all by yourself
this time.
I need to be strong for this. I will keep my faith on us. In
Him!
If it will be us till the end. It will be us. You will find
your way home back to me.
Maybe it’s time for us to grow as an individual – ALONE.
Go on with your life, and I will do the same.
I know and will trust that God will be there, and He will
tie us again – together again..
SOMEDAY. Maybe one of these days.
I will take my chances, and this is the chance that I will
take.
I will wait. I’m just here waiting outside the lines.
I loved you; I love you, and will always do.
Delight yourself in the Lord, and He shall give you the
desires of your heart. – Psalm 37:4
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