Waiting outside the lines.

-        I had just finish the video message that I made for him. I hope he can read this. Maybe someday. I don’t know. But I am happy that I’d finished this. ^^ Well I don’t want to say too much this time. *Sigh.

-YAM [yours always, mida]

Dear you,

I know it’s kinda hard for you. There are a lot of things and issues in our lives right now. You have your own issues and I do either. I know it’s hard.

These things might just really happen for a reason. We are still young, and might not even really ready to go on to a more serious world outside together.

You might just really need to stay inside your world for some time.

You need to fix and to make things right – alone all by yourself, without me.

You need to prove some things to yourself. And I know you can, all by yourself – YOU CAN!

Honestly speaking, everything is so magical. It just happened that I accidentally played this song out of nowhere. Yeah, I know.. You’re sister’s favorite – Greyson Chance.

So I smiled. A moment ago, I was like really crying and praying.

I don’t know if I should really stay here and wait, because honestly speaking I am very afraid that I may not waiting for you anymore. Perhaps, you are not really there anymore.

So I prayed, I prayed and prayed. God already answered me a week ago; and He said that I just need to “wait”.  

Yet I am not really sure if that’s the answer, I hesitated. So again, I prayed. Then now, I heard this song and hit me like a ball of fire.

Probably this is the right thing to do.

Just to stay outside the box. To stay outside of your life right now.

I need to let you go now, to let you grow all by yourself this time.

I need to be strong for this. I will keep my faith on us. In Him!

If it will be us till the end. It will be us. You will find your way home back to me.

Maybe it’s time for us to grow as an individual – ALONE.

Go on with your life, and I will do the same.

I know and will trust that God will be there, and He will tie us again – together again..

SOMEDAY. Maybe one of these days.

I will take my chances, and this is the chance that I will take.

I will wait. I’m just here waiting outside the lines.

I loved you; I love you, and will always do.

Delight yourself in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. – Psalm 37:4

In God’s time, I will see and be with you again. 

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