I was taking a bath that time when a sudden rush filled my senses while I was thinking of
something else. Yeah in other words I was in the middle of day dreaming about random things when a
flashback from the history visited me. A history of you and I.
Do you still remember the first time we held hands? It was
already late that time. We were waiting for a jeep that time because you are
going to send me home. Then a lot of people came and rush into the jeep and
that’s why we have to be fast and competent. And you held my hand so that I’ll
not be carried by the people who were rushing to get into the jeep. We held
hands for quite some time. Long enough for me to feel and to study your hand.
Will it ever happen again? Or it will just remain in the history of our story?
May it happen again or not, one thing will be sure; it will always remain in my
memory and in my heart.
Wherever you are right now, I hope you are okay and doing
just fine. I hope you are happy and you’re successfully fulfilling your desire
in life. I hope and will always pray the best for you.
PURE. UNPLANNED.
PERFECT. Those were Nick’s summer plans before Sasha stepped into the picture.
With the collateral damage from his parents’ divorce still settling and Dani
(his girl of the moment) up for nearly anything, complications are the last
thing he needs. All that changes, though, when Nick runs into Sasha at the
beach in July. Suddenly he’s neck-deep in a relationship and surprised to find
he doesn’t mind in the least. But Nick’s world shifts again when Sasha breaks
up with him. Then, weeks later, while Nick’s still reeling from the breakup,
she turns up at his doorstep and tells him she’s pregnant. Nick finds himself
struggling once more to understand the girl he can’t stop caring for, the girl
who insists that it’s still over. (Credit: Summary from the back of the
book)
So yeah? You had
the summary out there. I would say that the book was pretty unique. This book
was actually the first ever novel I’d read that is coming from a man’s
perspective. We all know that women are more likely to speak and talk almost
everything about their lives. That’s make this novel pretty much different from
others. You know honestly speaking I always wanted to know what’s inside of a
man’s head. You know, men are pretty much like a big secret. And that’s the big
difference of Nick among other protagonist.
Nick showed his
love, weakness, care, and everything that can rarely be found among men. He’s also shown that “speechless” thing which
is very much common among men. You know, they want to say something but they
can’t just really express their self though. I don’t know why men are like
that. They always tend to act as if they are a maze game where in you have to
go and figure them out all by yourself. It’s kinda depressing though. How men
do usually act as if they don’t really care where in fact they cared a lot.
Some may act as if they cared about you but the truth is they don’t. It’s
really different. They were like a jumbled letters where in you can find different
meaning out of it. They were just really hard.
The funny thing is;
that is what I like most among men. I like their way of being so mysterious. I like
men who are showing their superiority and control. I am more challenge but not
all the time though. Yeah, guys are full of secrets but I think being a girl is
much more an adventure of being a man. Girls are much more difficult news
especially to guys. Like Sasha in the novel. She’s so perfect to show those men
out there that women are a great challenge. That they can’t just read
everything that is on our mind. Sometimes they really need to learn how to read
between the lines.
Going back to the
novel, I just really don’t like what Sasha did like aborting their supposed to
be child. Yeah I get it that they were just sixteen and they can’t have it.
Sorry but I am actually standing on a pro-life side. It’s actually standing for
what you did. They had fun so they have to take responsibility to whatever happens
afterwards. That is always the problem among us humans. We all know how to
enjoy things up but not all of us know how to handle it when things get rough. It’s
all about running, leaving everything behind us. I understand, in the end
everything will depend on us. After all it’s our life. But we must at least
give consideration not only on ourselves but to other people who are involved
as well.
Yeah I know, I
think I am being so personal now. So let’s just leave everything behind as I
close the book. Good night folks.
Last before I go to bed. I’m done watching “200 Pounds
Beauty” – Korean Movie
Cute! =)
The movie was about a huge lady named Hannah Kang who used to be a backup
singer for a pretty singer named Ammy. Well Ammy doesn’t really know how to
sing and that’s why they need Hannah. But Hannah decided to take a plastic
surgery to make her beautiful. When she’s already beautiful she came back and
became a singer known as Jenny; the lead singer this time. But the truth will
always find its way. So during her concert she confessed to all of the people
that she’s not real, that she’s just a product of a plastic surgery. That’s the
fall of Jenny and the rise of Hannah herself.
It’s a
very cute story, isn’t it? I would say that it’s kinda impossible for a 200 pound
lady to transform into a petite one. Right? Roughly, yeah it can be. They says,
“nothing is impossible” right?
Well
reality hurts, that sometimes we can’t see the beauty of a person. We tend to
look at them due to their outside appearance. We are usually blinded by those
things, glamour and shine. Well that is our nature as a person. But still I am
happy because not all of us were like that, or still there is a part of us that
is not like that. We can still appreciate beauty not just in its look but what’s
inside of it. There are so many things that may be deceiving but not only our
eyes can see what’s real and not; I believe that it’s our heart that knows better what
is real from not.
I think
this will be all for tonight. It’s already three in the morning. I better go to
bed. Sorry I just really enjoyed watching tonight. Back to school tomorrow. ^^
So yeah let’s call it a night. Good night.
Hello again. I’d just finished watching “My Little Bride” –
Korean Movie
Okay, so
the movie is all about a fixed marriage between a man named Simon Park and a
seventeen year old girl named Bea Su. They married each other to grant their
grandfathers promise to each other that their children will get marry. But
since their children were both man the promise was transferred to their
grandchildren who happened to be Simon and Bea. This movie’s very good. It’s a
romantic comedy that will make you laugh and fall in love at the same time. I
was in a bad mood today but when I saw the movie, I forgot about my problem for
a little while. ^^ Well in the end Bea realized that she really loved Simon. =)
Well
that will be all. The thing that this movie made me realized; sometimes love is
already their around the corner but we’re just too busy to see it. Well that’s
all. Enjoy! Goodnight.
Done watching another Thai movie
entitled “My True Friend.” I can say that I really envy the characters in the
film. Honestly speaking I’ve been always wishing to have a real group of
friends. I mean like more than four super close friends. I’m not saying that I
don’t have real friends though. All I am saying is, I want a group and I want
to be a part of a group. Though I think it will be hard to maintain a healthy
relationship with them. It will be hard sometimes since you guys came from
different ways. Some maybe hard headed, some may be cool or some maybe a
tripper and blah blah if you know what I mean. Well, I don’t know. I am not
just a group person. You know. Most of the time I want to be alone. Well yeah, sometimes with a company of a
friend. Just that.
About
the movie? It’s about a group of man who are most of the time involved on a
brawl. There’s this guy named Gun, who taught the rest of the guy how to value
their friendship. Well for the record Gun is the only child of a rich couple.
But since they are so rich they failed to give some time to their son. That is
why Gun focused himself to his friends. Like any other friendship they also had
their ups and downs. But they still remained together. They showed and proved
that a real friendship isn’t always about having fun, it isn’t always about
supporting your friend. Sometimes you have to be with them during their
downtimes. You have to remind them what is right and wrong. You have to be
yourself when you are with them. Then, at the latter part Gun died during one
of their fights. But even though he died, all of his beliefs about friendship
remained in their hearts.
It’s
really a good one. It was very inspiring. So yeah. I’ll leave it all up to you
the rest of the reviews and yadda when you already finish watching the movie.
Happy Sunday!
Yeah,
I’d watched it before and since I was bored I watched it again. The movie was
really good. You know, it happened to all of us I guess. Fell in love (whether
real or just a puppy love) during our high school days. Well I guess almost
everyone knows about that movie. The main lesson I learned from this movie is,there is always a chance for everyone and if
it will be the two of you; it will always be the two of you. Very simple
yet it’s really hard. Well I guess, we don’t have to wait. It’s all about
enjoying and doing the things that we must do. And one day we’ll wake up and
the thing that we wanted most yesterday is already here in front of us. That’s
life and we must learn how to deal with it.
Second, “Yes or No”
It’s
another Thai movie. At first I didn’t like to continue watching it when I found
out that it’s a sort of girl to girl love story or what we called the “lesbian”.
Aha, I bet not every one of us likes to watch such movie right? I mean yeah, in
this society we always tend to judge others; even we don’t say something there
is still a part of us thinking and saying something at the back of our minds.
Uh uh admit it. We can’t avoid that. Okay yeah, forget about the sermons. Well
about the movie, it’s really good. I mean like yes! The story was so good. I
think it almost even made me a tom haha. I mean seriously, while watching this
movie I appreciate them. They were also humans duh!? And there is nothing wrong
when you fall in love, whether it’s a boy or girl. That’s love. I actually envy
them at some point. Well enough for my yadda. It’s freakin’ five in the morning
already. I have to go to sleep now because I will be having my date tomorrow.
^^ (Date with God)
Have
you ever been lost? You feel like you are all alone in a midst? Even if you cry
out loud, still no one can hear you. You’ve been trying different outlet just
to ease the pain yet in the end, nothing has changed. Asking yourself what else
can you do? But it seems like no one can help you at all. You’re so lost; all
alone by yourself.
Honestly speaking, I forgot the
last time I’ve ever felt this way. I’ve been so perfectly happy these past few
months in my life. I’ve even learned how to make way even closer to Him. I made
that decision because I can feel Him. I was so grateful during those times. I
can really feel his presence with me. So I asked Him, I asked Him to reveal His
self to me even more because I want to know more about Him. I want Him in my
life.
Then few days after that, all of
these things happened. Slowly, things are killing me. I felt so restricted and
weak. So I prayed. I prayed and prayed. The more I pray, the more things get
worse but every time I will read the bible or any material regarding Him; I can
feel His presence. So I will be very empowered and motivated to fight, to be
strong indeed. Then few hours after that, here we go again. Additional problems
are on their way in my life. My life has been this way these past few weeks;
and honestly speaking, I really don’t know what to do anymore.
I don’t want this. I can’t handle this
thing anymore. I thought I was strong enough to handle everything that will
come in my life but as times goes by; I think these problems were just telling
and showing in my face that I can’t handle them. Yes! They won! I give up. I
can’t really handle this alone. I’ve been praying and talking to You Lord since
then. But why? It seems like you can’t hear me. Why these things were kept on
happening to me every single day? Why? At first I thought it’s just a test. The
moment I told You I want to know You better, then suddenly these things
happened. I said to myself that maybe You just want me to seek for you. I did that
Lord.
I’m so sorry. I am too weak for
these. I can’t really handle these things Lord. I don’t even know if I am
getting all your answers in a right way. Or am I just telling myself that you
showed that sign because that is what I want to see? I really don’t know
anymore. I am throwing my hands up in the air. I swear, I can’t do this
anymore. Please, I know You are just somewhere out there. You can hear me, can’t
You? I am lost right now. And we both know that I am not yet a fully prepared Christian
yet. I am just starting my way to meet You. God, please don’t make this way
hard for me. I am still fragile. Please pick me up now. Please. Hear me now
Lord.
Probably I am such a disappointment
right now. I’ve been starting to follow you few months ago, and yet here I am crying,
still lost. I am so sorry. You know I trust You but I am just me. A twenty year
old lady trying to know You better. Look, I am still young. I am not that
strong yet unlike other people. I still got disappointed every time I pray and
doesn’t hear from You in return. But believe me, I am really trying to be
still. Maybe You know that or yeah maybe not. But really I am. But right now, I
just can’t though I am still trying. I am in pain; so much pain. I know this is
just a test, a test that will make me strong. I know, and I do believe in that.
I do believe in You. I can surpass this. I can.
Even though You are not answering
my prayers, I hope… and I wish that someday You’ll hear it and You’ll finally
answer it. I will still believe in that thing. I trust You. Just like what my
favorite verse says: “Trust in the Lord; and do good; dwell in the land, and
feed on His faithfulness. Delight yourself also in the Lord and He shall give
you the desires of your heart.” –Psalm 37:3-4
“The lord is my portion; therefore
I hope in Him.” –Lam 3:22-24
I will hope. I will trust. Please
be with me. I
will be fine. :|
"Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart."
- Psalm 37:3-4 If I were gonna put something in this section of my blogspot, I will put this verse first. The verse that is keeping me alive. The hope and love, everything in this verse.
Trust in the Lord -- That is the thing that we should always do.. To trust Him. He knows what is good and will be best for us.
"Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart."-- I will continue to believe in this verse. I know that someday He will give what my heart desires.
He knows what our heart desires, we just need to be still.
This would be my very first blog about music. When I just
accidentally heard and listened to this song. I was really like.. nothing, I
was really speechless. Since I was like waiting for an answer from God, then I
heard this out of nowhere. The lyrics accidentally hit me.
You'll never enjoy your life, living inside the box
You're so afraid of taking chances, how you gonna reach the
top?
Rules and regulations,force you to play it safe
Get rid of all the hesitation,it's time for you to seize the
day
Instead of just sit around and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground,the time is now
I'm waiting, waiting, just waiting,
I'm waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines Waiting outside the lines
Try to have no regrets even if it's just tonight
How you gonna walk ahead if you keep living blind
Stuck in my same position, you deserve so much more
There's a whole world around us, just waiting to be explored
Instead of just sit around and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground, the time is now,
just let it go
Dont wanna have to force you to smile
I'm here to help you notice the rainbow
Cause I know, What's in you is out there
I'm waiting, waiting, just waiting,
I'm waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines Waiting outside the lines
I'm trying to be patient (I'm trying to be patient)
the first step is the hardest (the hardest)
I know you can make it, go ahead and take it
I'm Waiting, waiting, just waiting I'm waiting
I'm waiting, waiting, just waiting
I'm waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
You'll never enjoy your life
Living inside the box
You're so afraid of taking chances,
How you gonna reach the top?
If you will analyze the song, the
message is all about waiting for someone who’s just really afraid to take his
chances to enjoy his life. That’s why Greyson was like waiting for that person
to do something. He’s just waiting outside the box because he is actually
giving that person to do something and make his own decision for himself. It’s
a very nice lyrics right, isn’t it? Indeed!
In my own point of view, this is
how God used the song for the answer that I’m praying for. The song seems like
telling me that I should just pause for a while and stay outside the box. I was
there for someone all the time. I was like trying to interfere all the time in
his life. I was like trying to solve everything for him. Yes – which is not
good.
He is a man he has his own
decisions for his life. He needs to prove something in his life. I need to respect
it. I need to be still, to be patient. Even though it will be very hard for me,
I need to let him go. I need to wait.
I don’t know if this is what really
God wants for me; If He is really telling me to pause and wait. But I prayed.
So I will take this chance. This is now my chance to prove to myself that I can
really love. That not only in good times, but in bad times as well. Even if I
am just alone, I know I can do this.
Lord God, please help me. Please tell
me that this is the right thing to do. Tell me that this is really Your answer
to my prayers. Tell me that everything will be fine. Please Lord; tell me that
in time I’ll understand everything. Please Lord God. Please. You know what my
heart desires. I will do this, because I do believe that this is Your answer.
Please continue to guide me oh Lord. Guide him also oh Lord. Please guide him.
Guide us Lord God to find our way back home in each other arms. I am putting and
lifting everything up on Your hands oh Lord. Please. I trust in You. Thank you.
Amen.
-I had just finish the video message that I made
for him. I hope he can read this. Maybe someday. I don’t know. But I am happy
that I’d finished this. ^^ Well I don’t want to say too much this time. *Sigh.
-YAM [yours always, mida]
Dear you,
I know it’s kinda hard for you. There are a lot of things
and issues in our lives right now. You have your own issues and I do either. I
know it’s hard.
These things might just really happen for a reason. We are
still young, and might not even really ready to go on to a more serious world
outside together.
You might just really need to stay inside your world for
some time.
You need to fix and to make things right – alone all by
yourself, without me.
You need to prove some things to yourself. And I know you
can, all by yourself – YOU CAN!
Honestly speaking, everything is so magical. It just
happened that I accidentally played this song out of nowhere. Yeah, I know..
You’re sister’s favorite – Greyson Chance.
So I smiled. A moment ago, I was like really crying and
praying.
I don’t know if I should really stay here and wait, because
honestly speaking I am very afraid that I may not waiting for you anymore. Perhaps,
you are not really there anymore.
So I prayed, I prayed and prayed. God already answered me a
week ago; and He said that I just need to “wait”.
Yet I am not really sure if that’s the answer, I hesitated.
So again, I prayed. Then now, I heard this song and hit me like a ball of fire.
Probably this is the right thing to do.
Just to stay outside the box. To stay outside of your life
right now.
I need to let you go now, to let you grow all by yourself
this time.
I need to be strong for this. I will keep my faith on us. In
Him!
If it will be us till the end. It will be us. You will find
your way home back to me.
Maybe it’s time for us to grow as an individual – ALONE.
Go on with your life, and I will do the same.
I know and will trust that God will be there, and He will
tie us again – together again..
SOMEDAY. Maybe one of these days.
I will take my chances, and this is the chance that I will
take.
I will wait. I’m just here waiting outside the lines.
I loved you; I love you, and will always do.
Delight yourself in the Lord, and He shall give you the
desires of your heart. – Psalm 37:4
I really don’t know where to start. I don’t know if it’s
okay to write about my personal feelings here. I mean I really don’t know. But
for whatever reason, I would really like to write it here. Maybe someday I will
read this thing again. Maybe by that time I am already healed.
I am still hurt. Yes I am. I am not afraid neither ashamed
to admit that I am still in pain. I would really say that my heart isn’t broken
though. Funny uh? I am in pain and I am writing all of these rants here then
here I am claiming that I am not broken. Would you believe in me? But really, I
am telling the truth. I can’t feel that my heart was broken. Why? Because I
know that my heart is still there, it still loves him. And I know that it will
continue to love him.
Recently I’d watched two movies; and those two movies were
all about a love that will take place in the future. I don’t know if it’s God’s
answer to my prayers. But a part of me is wishing that it’s really one
of God’s answers. That in love, it is
not always in a right time. Perhaps that’s true, we do really have a right love
in a wrong time. It isn't the right time because we’re not ready yet. Maybe we are still young, we still have a lot
of things we need to do with our lives. We still need to grow as an individual. I hope it is. I hope that’s the answer.
If it’s only about waiting, I can surely wait. I can. I know I can. But I am not sure if I am still
waiting for someone. I know I’m not. But why am I giving myself all of this
false hope. I am a fool. I don’t know why I am still here. I don’t know why am I still madly in love with him. I don’t know what to do but I know God
is still there for me. I know He has the answer for all of this. Someday, I
will find it all out. I will understand why these things happened to us; to me.
And honestly speaking, that’s one of the things that make me strong. I know I
am not alone. God will always be with me. I know He will reveal everything to
me. In the right time, everything will be just fine.
I know I am still in love with you. I am not mad for what
had happened to us. I thank you for being honest with me. I thank you for
everything. At least now, I know I can love. I can love unselfishly. And as
time goes by I know I will be here. I will be here no matter what. I may not or
will not do anything after that night I think I did what I had to do. And there is nothing else I have to do. Just to be still.
I hope you can make it on time. I hope you can find your way back home
to me. I will be here --- waiting.
Oh hi! :D Sorry I’m just really in the mood for blogging
some new stuff since I’d just finished my new blog space where I can write all
my rants and blah~sh in my life. I think I am in love in this cute pink and
black space here. Though it’s kinda hard for me to finish this since it’s been
ages since the last time I designed and edited my blogger site. Well thanks
though for the makers of the said design, I’d just added and changed few things
about the design. I hope they don’t mind, well I left their credits below. :p I
really think their design’s really good, but I just wanted to make it more
personalized. Well yes, pink and black are the two colors that really describe
me. I don’t know. Maybe because pink is such a sweet color and I think I have
that sweet side even just a little :p and black, since I am very harsh. I mean
seriously, I am not kind, I am not so loud, and I am not friendly enough to
make new friends everywhere I go. I am just being me.
I think I will fill this space with my heart. I will write
everything I want to express. This is so me. I really find myself, writing like
forever. I just hope that I can keep my energy to write.
Anyway, I am just really happy and so excited to blog new
things about me. Yes, ABOUT ME. So I guess, if you don’t like me, better scram.
Right? Well yeah, I am a very transparent person. I don’t like fuss or what so
ever you call it. I just want a peaceful and simple life so if you don’t have
anything good to say or whatever, just please keep it to yourself. ^^
On the other hand, I just want to say thanks for those
people who love me. You guys are so kind! :p I know I’ve been so rough lately
but still you are bearing with me. I do appreciate you guys.
Well anyway I am not really in the mood now. I don’t know. I
want to write about something else. So yeah, see you around.
Yey! Finally I transferred all my novel blogs from my Tumblr
account to my Blogspot account.
And I am quite surprised that in a short span of time, I’d
already finished like ten books. I think I started mid September this year.
Just two months. Oh. Not bad right? ^^ Well I am really starting to like it. I
mean, it’s like a new world for me. A world separated from the stressful one. I
am really finding my peace inside the book, with the characters with me. So
yeah! I think I will continue doing this hobby of mine.
Anyway, I think I will slow down a bit. Because last two Sundays
ago, according to the preaching of the pastor – we should remove all the encumbrances and sins, so we can be closer
to God. So I will do that thing too. I am not saying that reading books are
sins, though. But I would consider it as an encumbrance because I am giving my
full time attention on reading it. So I will slow it down now.
Yadda! Okay, so I think that’s all I have to say. Happy
reading everyone!
I’d just finished reading another novel by Nicholas Sparks. Well I can tell that he’s a really good writer. The story is very different. Every time I read his works, I can really feel it. And I can tell that God is also with me. In his works, he never failed to show how great our God is.
So about the novel, it’s a great story between Travis and Gabby who happened to be neighbors. Gabby has a long term boyfriend – Kevin. But then when she met Travis, she fell in love with him – same as Travis to her. So Gabby made a choice between Kevin and Travis, she chose Travis. They got married and bear two daughters. Eleven years after, they had a car accident that caused Gabby in a comma. Three months after the accident, Travis has to make his decision whether to keep Gabby in a nursing home or just to let her go and die. It was a hard choice for Travis, because she remembered the thing that Gabby told her two years ago. That if anything happened to her he needs to let her die. This decision was influenced by the couple that Gabby met in the hospital where she was working. The wife was in a comma for six years, the husband tend to visit her everyday but on the latter part it seemed like the husband got tired of visiting and waiting for her to wake up. The husband lost his job, house, and their two sons didn’t finish their schooling and even got involved in drugs. It was such a hard choice that Travis has to do. But he can’t just let Gabby die. So he didn’t follow his promise to Gabby, instead he moved her to a nursing house. Three months after, June 2007 Gabby woke up.
It’s such a wonderful novel. A true love indeed! This is how we can truly show our love to one person. It’s all about believing. I know it’s hard. We may have different ways of showing our love but I do believe that all of these ways, they are very unique in their own ways. I don’t know if God will give me such this kind of love story. But I hope He will. I am always hoping. I will be a little personal this time, but I think – I was built to love. I am here to share to others what love is really is. Yes yes, I am not Cupid or yadda yadda. Don’t get me wrong but I can really feel that I do really know how to love. It’s obvious, everyone knows how to love. I just really want to have something like this. And if I will love, I want God – no other than Lord God to be inside and in between my relationship. ^^ That will sum up The Choice by Nicholas Sparks. Thank for reading God bless everyone!
So again here I am. ^^ I’d finished another book in two days. This thing is sort of a late blog, well I’m such a little busy bee for these past few days. “A Good Boy Is Hard to Find” by Suzanne Young—— oh wee. So the novel is so much like a girly thing. And I like it (obviously I am a girl.) So the story was good. I mean, cheer leaders doing those spying things at the same time let’s admit it its kinda hot thing to do.
Okay, let’s have a short run about the novel. It’s about cheer leaders which are the Smitten Kittens (Tessa the captain, Leona, Izzie, Kira, and Chloe the newest essential member that has something to do with the SOS) who are also having this underground organization called SOS. They were like your spy that you can count on whenever you have this intuition about your boyfriend cheating on you. So they will do all those spying activities and will give you all the results and evidences needed. Yadda yadda. I will not tell the whole story. I don’t want to be a spoiler.
So yeah? My comment. Well well, about the SOS? I am honestly wishing that we have that kind of organization here. So whenever we feel like our boy friends are cheating on us we can contact someone that will do all the necessary stuffs to do. We don’t have to pay anything, all for free ladies. And yes please!! We really need this kind of organization to reveal all those man-whore cheaters!! >:))
Next highlight was about the love triangle between Tessa, Kira, and Joel. (Joel was Kira’s ex.) Tessa and Kira were best of friends before. In my own point of view, I just can’t date my best friend’s ex. — Okay, EX best friend, still… I can’t. No offense, but it’s like leaving some prints. It’s your friends special someone even after they broke up. Well, I just can’t really see myself doing that. But I really have nothing against those people who are in a relationship or dating their friend or ex-friend’s ex.
On the other hand, I like the scene between Tessa and Chloe. They found a reason to forgive each other. Forgive? Yes, because they had a cat fight before when Chloe tried to steal Tessa’s ex boyfriend. Chloe hit Tessa’s head with an alarm clock which leaves stitches on Tessa’s forehead. Cute uh? Well I just like that, I mean forgiving. After all who can tell that they can be a good friends after all those cat fight and throwing of an alarm clock on someone’s head. ^^
Moving on, let’s now focus the spot light to Aiden who happened to be Tessa’s ex boyfriend. Unfortunately Tessa found out that Aiden cheated on her when he slept with another girl. Ouch uh? Of course it hurts! But then, Aiden never stopped to win Tessa back. Look!! That’s the real man! Efforts and all those silly stuff that will win his girl back. Do we still have that kind of man here? I don’t think so. Well all I can say is; Tessa is such a lucky girl. Even though yes, it’s really hard to forgive and it’s harder to forget. Especially to us girls, when it comes to this kind of case. But I will admit that though it’s really hard for us girls to imagine what happened during the cheating process our boyfriend had, we still forgive them. That’s us. Girls are so wonderful. Do you guys even see that? Uh? I bet not! But I’m extremely happy for Tessa because finally she found the forgiveness for Aiden.
A good boy is hard to find. Yes! I extremely agree that good boy is really hard to find. Reality checks I think that’s life. That’s man’s nature. But I am not saying that all boys are a cheater or what so ever. Yadda yadda. Let’s close this case.
Taking Chances by Molly McAdams Okay, so where am I going to start with this? The novel was so damn good!! I swear!! It was amazing. It’s quite long compared to the previous books I’d read before, but I was surprised to finished the said book in two days. Ah, actually two nights to be exact. Oh my, it was really a page turner. I can’t stop but to continue reading. That’s also the reason why I slept before the dawn two consecutive nights. So do I love this novel?
The story was about an eighteen year old girl named Harper. She grew with her marine father who was very strict. Like real strict, she was only allowed to call her father “Sir.” She grew up with a bunch of marines in Sir’s unit. She never had a long conversation with her father that lasts for more than ten seconds. So when she decided to study to California, to stay a distance from her father. Then she met Breanna – her roommate, who’s also the person who brought her to some of the parties and shopped new famine clothes for her. To cut the story short, she met Chase on that party who happened to be Bree’s brother – anyway, its Breanna’s nickname. Then afterward, she also met Brandon, Chase and Bree’s friend. Then after a few days, she became Brandon’s girl. Again, let’s cut the story short. Then five months later — during their holiday break while Brandon was in Arizona something happened to Chase and Harper. For the record, Harper was still pure during that time. Okay I’ll give my comments later. Afterwards, she felt that she’s really in love with Chase for so long time ago. So then she asked Chase for some time for her to think things over. Then Brandon came home from Arizona, she realized that she can’t hurt Brandon’s feeling. Suddenly, Harper and Bree found out that she’s pregnant. So she told Bree everything that she never lied to her every time she answered Bree that she and Brandon still haven’t have sex. And it’s Chase whom she gave her virginity, and now she’s pregnant. Then she broke up with Brandon and told him she’s pregnant with Chase’s baby. Emailed sir but unfortunately, Sir disowned her. Fortunately Claire and Robert Garyson ( Bree and Chase’s parents ) treats her like their own daughter. Then on her nineteenth birthday when Chase was about to surprised her, Chase saw all the ultrasound photos. He’s very angry and thought that it’s Bree’s. So Harper told Chase that it’s her. Chase knows that it’s only him who had made love with Harper so yes, he already knew that it’s theirs. They’re going to have a baby. They tried to fix their relationship until the incident in Chase’s graduation party. Where in Trish ( the girl who had crush on Chase ) took a photo of them together while in the bed and sent it to Harper. She broke up with Chase and that night….. Chase died in a car accident. To cut the story short once again. Brandon took the responsibility and married her.
I think that is too much for the synopsis. Look, I told you guys. This novel was awesome. Really it was! I will never forget my reactions to some part of the novel.
The time when Harper got lost in Chase arms. When they made love to each other. I was like, “Oh please NO!! Don’t do this to Brandon.” But unfortunately, Harper can’t hear me and she still made love with Chase.
How it breaks my heart when Harper told Brandon that she’s pregnant, Brandon was very surprised because he knew that Harper’s still pure and he has always respected her. When Harper told him that it’s Chase baby, I felt all the sadness on Brandon’s part. He finally realized that Harper cheated on him. I’m so sad for him.
But the most terrifying part for me was when Chase died. I cried so hard, like really hard. That night when Chase was very sorry for the pictures, when he’s telling Harper that he can’t remember everything and when the time he walked out of the door. Then after few hours, he died in a car accident. My tears fell reluctantly; it even made me harder to breath. Then during the funeral Trish appeared saying sorry and telling Harper that Chase loves Harper so much, that she was just jealous that’s why she drugged Chase to destroy them. I was like “Fuck! Sorry for that? He died, the love of my life, the father of my baby… Then you are sorry!!? What can your sorry do!? He’s gone. He’s GONE!!” Good thing Harper did the same she even slapped Trish’s face! Well she deserves it. Urgh! I don’t know, but I can’t really imagine myself in that situation. I can’t. Really I can’t. Thinking that my unborn child will never have a chance to meet his father, it will really break my heart. Dear sweet Lord, please don’t let me in that situation. You I can’t surpass that. So please..
But still Harper’s a lucky woman. Because even though God took Chase away from her He still left Brandon for her. Then she gave birth with their son, they named him Liam Chase Taylor – Liam was from Brandon’s father’s name that died when he was young. Chase from gummy bear’s biological father. In the end, Harper father showed up and talked to her. He asked forgiveness for everything. Then he moved in California to be with Harper and his grandchild. I was so happy for Harper. She’s really blessed to have those people around him. To have two great men who became a part of her life. Two man who love her so dearly. Family that loves her. A best friend who treated her as her owns sister and who even shared her family with her. Everything was so perfect.
Taking Chances —- I think life would be really about this. There will be different things that will come and it up to us if we’re strong enough to take the courage. It’s all about on how are we going to take a shot on our chances. But remember, that in every chance we have we’ll always have the consequences behind it. If we’re strong enough to take the chance, then we should also be stronger to take the consequences that come along with it. And yes, I do also believe in giving second chances away. Life will be like that, it’s a one shot thing. If you’ll be afraid to get hurt then you’ll never be happy. Give yourself a chance, a chance of being happy. At the end of the day, life will be about Taking Chances. God Bless everyone.
I had just finished reading another teenage novel. ( Okay, I’m kinda enjoying teenage novel lately. ) Aright, so.. what can I say? Um. Honestly, at first I wasn’t really enjoying reading Stealing Parker. But then on the latter part, and I finally enjoyed this when I reached the part with the “ohh-lala” factor.
So yeah? Stealing Parker is just about a girl who really loves to play softball, until her mother left them and go with a butch, and all started with that thing. How her life was changed with that scenario. How Laura — her so called best friend left and spread all those rumors about her. How the people in their church judged them. How she quitted her softball team. How she hooked up with different guys just to show people that she’s far different from her mother, and just to prove that the rumors about her being a butch wasn’t true.
Then she had a secret affair with the baseball team’s coach – Brian Hoffman. Okay for the record, Brian was six years older than Parker that time. He was twenty-three then Parker was seventeen. Then along the way she fell in love with Will who’s also a part of the baseball team and also her competitor for the title of being the school valedictorian. (FYI, Parker beat Will.. Huh! Girl power.) But unfortunately, she can’t show her feelings toward him because her best friend Drew (who’s also a part of the baseball team) has a feeling for Will also.
To cut the story short, the school found out about the thing between her and Brian. That’s why Brian resigned and never showed to Parker again. Then Drew got mad at her because he thought that Parker hooked up with Will. Then Will got mad also with her because he found out that she was with Brian while having this good time with him. Everything’s so messed up! Then she called her mom. That’s the time she talked to her mom after the scenario of her mom leaving them for Theresa – her mom’s girlfriend. Then slowly, things got better. She joined the softball team again. She apologized to Drew and Will. She started her life again. It all ends during the night of their prom. She and Drew were okay, so with Will. Then they decided to start and to get things back together again.
So, here you go. That will sum up the novel. It’s good right? I mean look. Almost all of us will at least experience a time wherein we’ll feel like we are all alone. There are times where in we don’t know what we really want for our lives. We are pursuing those things that we thought we want and we need, but not seeing that the thing we really need is just there. We don’t have to look too far away. Just like what the pastor said last Sunday – “Selah Regularly… Pause and Pay Attention.” I am so glad that this novel showed the importance of faith with God. Parker is a Christian. She always seeks God. Though, there are times we aren’t really sure about God’s message to us. All we have to do is to “Selah Regularly… Pause and Pay Attention.” To pause, and to pay attention to what God is saying. Not to rush things. Pause. That’s what happened to Parker – to each and every one of us. When we are in a rush, we can’t hear what God’s telling us. We can’t pay attention to him because we are too busy doing other things. If only we know how to pause, to pay attention. Things will be better; we can hear Him loud enough. We’ll understand His message to us. Well, I’m happy that the rough time in Parker’s life is over. I am happy to see and witnessed how God can truly help us with our lives. Praise God! :)
Done reading “He’s So Not Worth It” by Kieran Scott. ^^ Well okay.. What can I say? It’s a novel for me I think. I mean for my age. For teenagers. Blah~ Even though I can’t barely see myself in the shoe of Ally Ryan, but you know… as a teen, we all (almost I think) experience something that really made as very sad, disappointed, hurt, mad, and so on and forth. Well yes, probably all of us seen ourselves in that situation right? Wherein we think, nobody cares about us. That everything was just so fucked up.
Sometimes, I think life isn’t fair.. Like nothing is right. You know~ problem to deal with our parents, friends, boyfriend/girlfriend, teachers, and everyone else. Like, we don’t have anyone to vent on. We’re all alone. No one can even understand us. Perhaps that is how life teaches us our lessons. (Okay, done with all the sermons.)
Moving on, when I first saw the title of the book – “He’s So Not Worth It.” I paused for a while, then I said to myself… “Oh I think I want to read this.. Why He’s So Not Worth It, lemme find out.” Then that’s it….
So a father… Mr. Ryan, who’s been gone for like three years.. Can a father do that? Leave he’s family behind? He has a problem, that’s why he ran? He needs to find himself, that’s why he left everyone behind him? Disappearing like bubble popped in the air? Then suddenly when they finally found themselves, they will go running back to those people who’d they left behind.
Why do guys are like that? Why do they always run when they have problems? Why they can’t just stay and face it! Can’t they see there are a lot of people at their side? I am just so disappointed with those kind of people. >.<
(Move on) Ah’right. So the other thing was the issue with the local man named, Cooper. So yeah right, Ally kept on saying that Cooper was hot and all that… but the point is, that hot Cooper is not really worth it. I don’t know, maybe I had just a lot of experiences when it comes to different people that is why I can easily tell if “Okay I will go with them or not.” Or perhaps, because it just happened that I can see the whole scenario and Ally didn’t. Well well, enough for Cooper. I don’t like him that’s all. ^_^v
So let’s have, Hammond Ross. Ah’right. I don’t know what’s up with Hammond and Ally in the past. (Well they didn’t mention anything aside from their kiss which they claimed a million years ago.) Well, I can see that Hammond is a good man. But taking advanatage to a girl like Ally who just saw Jake and Chloe together is totally a NO NO! So that’s all I can say ‘bout Hammond.
Then we have Faith Kirkpatrick, Shannen Moore, Chloe Appleby and Annie. Those girls. I think they weren’t bad at all. I mean, they were even bestfriends before. So it’s very common to have a fight with your bestfriends sometimes. But at leats don’t close your door with any reconcillation right? (Well.. just trying to be realistic, but honestly I never had a bestfriend to enemy scenario yet.)
With Mom. I don’t know what to say with this. I can’t imagine my mom marrying other guy aside from my dad. That is why I totally understand Ally in this part. I can feel her. I probably might treat my mom like what she did. But on the other hand I feel for her mother, when she only wants to be happy.
Then lastly let’s have, Jake Graydon – Ally’s ex something. Well At most, I like Jake but somehow I find him so stupid not trying to explain everyhing to Ally. I mean, if you really love a person you should at least have tried to do any effort to have her back. That’s the problem, many of us don’t do this – the doing of the so called “effort.”
Well well, so much for this novel. Good enough for teenagers specially those who are experiencing such problems like that.
So, I think this will sum up my blog for “He’s So Not Worth It.”
I’d just finished reading Beard to You by Sylvia Day. Pardon me for always reading some so called “erotic novel” O:) Well, I just read it for some kind of comparison. You know, I love Fifty Shades Triology a lot. Then, I heard about this novel — which is nearly similar as Fifty Shades. So I was quite interested and curious-ed at the same time — ohh~~ curiosity as always. Haha!
So I’d finally decided to read the said novel. Well, at first I don’t want Bared To You, I think because I was still high and nuts about Fifty Shades. But since I really wanted to compare and to see the difference by myself between the two, I read the said novel.
It was good though. Gideon was just like Christian — wealthy and so authoritative. Eva was not same as Ana though, yet I still appreciate the both women. They were strong enough to love a man who’s very authoritative and full of mysteries. Well, I just don’t like being control by others.. :p
What I like aboutBared To You —was the funny thing. I mean it’s not too serious, it has some part where in you will actually laugh. And oh! I did cry also, when Eva confessed to Gideon about her past. I just don’t want that thing to happen to any woman. *Sigh* On the other hand, I didn’t like how it actually ended. I mean, it’s was like……..Oh? seriously, that’s the ending?Quite depressing uh?
So it seems like I have to wait for the next book. Because I would really like to know why Gideon Cross was like that.. Blah~ So that will sum up my blog for today about Beard to You by Sylvia Day. :)
I had just finished reading Nicholas Sparks’ novel — A Walk to Remember. I can’t help but cry. Everything’s so wonderful. I can see myself in Jamie’s shoes. A dream of being married someday. Well yes, maybe it’s every woman’s dream right? I don’t know, um.. Yes, I’ve watched this movie long time ago. I was still a grade school student during that time. I remember that, by that time I already appreciated the movie itself. But when I read the novel, it’s like a new thing for me. Even though that I already know that in the end — Jamie will die and it will be Landon left behind.
When I finally reached the half of the book, I never stopped reading it. I can feel it. One thing more, to be honest…. The thing that I liked most about the novel is the author’s way of putting God at the center of it. You know, I can feel that the story revolved particularly in God’s greatness. And yes I extremely agree, He is truly amazing.
Um, well. All I can say is, it’s truly a walk to remember. And I will close this book hoping that I would have my own walk that will be always remember like the walk that Jamie had.
Oh, it’s been so long since the last time I’ve posted some random blogs of mine. Well I guess, it only shows how busy I was this past few days. Well okay, I will just go straight to the point. The reason why I bring my ass up again here in my tumblr account and why I am putting these words together again, umm.. Well I just want to write something about my latest addiction.. ^^ “Fifty Shades Triology”
Well I don’t know.. Haha! Okay okay, um.. Well I really don’t like reading books before because I easily get bore. Then suddenly my friend told me to read this book.. “Fifty Shades of Grey” then I tried to read it, and when I started reading it.. It seems like, I don’t even want to stop. And that’s the beginning of my story. :)
I finished the first book in a short period of time.. Then I was so busy but then, I finished “Fifty Shades Darker” in a shorter period of time compared to “Fifty Shades of Grey” I guess, I finished it for about two days. Surprising uh? I was busy back then but still, I was able to find time to read it. And oh it was REALLY GOOD! All the scenes — they were really good.. Some of them were really touching.. I cried for how many times while reading the second book. I felt all the agony that they were going through. It was amazing, I never thought that I will ever cry while reading this novel — or with any other novels actually. It was really fascinating. Afterwards, I proceeded with the last book “Fifty Shades Freed.” It’s kinda long compared to the first two books. But I would say that this is my favorite among the three. It was really amazing. The story is so great. I immensely cry at some part of it. The lines were so breathtaking. I cannot say anything, more than— I love it.. It’s really beyond my expectation! ^^
PS:
Well the first time I posted something about this novel, some were telling me that the novel is not that good. Because it is an erotic novel. Yes it’s true, it is an erotic novel.. but it was really good.. At first maybe it’s too detailed when it comes to the thing…. But on the latter part, it was really good. When you got to know the real story behind, you will finally appreciate it. That’s what happened to me. I will always remember this novel. Great job E.L James~!
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